Lie No. 8 | 10.07.18

✨FAQ Edition/NOT a selfie✨
Q: Are you… OK?
A: Yes! If you have to ask, we’re overdue for a catch-up. I’m an extremely private person. If I were having a mental breakdown, I wouldn’t invite you to watch. I did invite you to open up along w/me. Join me, mute me, unfollow me, judge me, whatever makes you comfortable. I’m not responsible for your comfort.
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Q: Has there been a diagnosis or a death? Did you lose someone you love?
A: What?! No! This one punched me in the gut last week + made me question this whole damn thing. Progress is messy. Appreciate the friend brave enough to ask.
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Q: What’s driving this?
A: I’m curious to a fault. I fall down rabbit holes for fun. Ask Matt about the time I took our sinks apart 🤷🏼‍♀️. He loves to joke I’ve seen the entire internet. Has a google search ever returned zero results for you? It’s unnerving, right? THAT is what’s driving this. I finally dove into something I’ve been avoiding, armed w/questions no algorithm could answer for me. Like rabbit holes before it, this one has a complex system of tunnels, twists + turns; it’s personal, so maybe that’s why the silence sounds so different. I’m probably over correcting w/too much SiriusXM’s The Coffeehouse. Have you ever really LISTENED to those lyrics?! Singer-songwriters feel enough feels for us all 💆🏼‍♀️🧘🏼‍♀️ Imagine if I’d gone w/the Lithium channel instead👩🏻‍🎤🎸
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Q: Why here?
A: A wiser woman might’ve tried journaling privately first, but I’m doing it here for✌🏻reasons. 1) there’s no lifeguard on duty in the sea of BS we swim in on social media; sometimes I need a buoy + thought others might, too; 2) accountability
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Q: Learned anything?
A: Emotions + experiences—while almost always intensely lonely + personal places in the moment—are marvelously more universal than we give them credit; if only we talked about them! Also, unlearning is hard af.
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Q: Any regrets?
A: YUP. Don’t love rereading some of the early posts. Fell into a feedback trap + let others’ love of suspense influence me. This isn’t a thriller.
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Q: Do you have enough material to keep this up?
A: Lolololololol